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I Know Why Everything Is Real

I know why everything is real
I don't want to walk along the bay
I don't need to see the ocean today
I don't need to hear news of reason
I don't need this night after today
I know why everything is real

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Writing again
April 3 2011
Writing again

My day to remember
A feeling to see true
How your love was mine

My song to remember
A sight to ask again

My day to remember
A feeling to understand
How I made my way

Writing again
April 3 2011
Writing again

My thought to remember
A sight to ask again

My day to remember
My play of change
My way to remember

Writing again
April 3 2011
Writing again

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My wind is blowing through
Time must now choose
How could I
I still hold faith in you

Never can I leave my today
My way of thought I use
Locked within feelings
I never could lose you

I am sure to leave behind my name
The tears I learned no less than yours

My wind is blowing through
Time must now choose
How could I
I still hold faith in you

Seems a bit old
What is on for tonight
I have a plan I had to take
I had to explain to you what I lived through

Never can I leave my today
My way of thought I use
Locked within feelings
I never could lose you

Next turn is only a breath away from you

I am sure to leave behind my name
The tears learned no less than yours

My wind is blowing through
Time must now choose
How could I
I still hold faith in you

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Loved by you
How you were always true
To my need, my want
Thought of by you

Loved by you
How the meaning touched me
I continue to show
In my only way to live
Given turns I won't turn

Loved by you
How you were always there
For me, my young girl days
My now woman ways

Loved by you
How you are always new
Send something sure I understand
My only moments to agree
Close to you, far away the same

Loved by you

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You must remember
I walk my gift I lost in you
You must remember was true

You must remember
I am not everyone
As we all have our loves
We have our lives
We hold our friendships close

You must understand
How my life changed
Along side of yours in one day
In a thought of now as memory

You must remember
I walk my gift I lost in you
You must remember was true

I had a story I was writing
I had a hope in yours
I carried no other want
No other need only from you

You must remember
I walk my gift I lost in you
You must remember was true

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My heart was sent into ruins
I need not be reminded
I remember every moment of you

My life changed more than yours
Just one stop with your world
Think of my feelings this day through
Everyone only thinks of you

My love was taken from me
Just once look back at me
I need not see to believe
Wouldn't I know all there is to you

My heart was sent into ruins
I need not be reminded
I remember every moment of you

I need not be shown any reason
Only show the truth to everyone of me

My heart was sent into ruins
I need not be reminded
I remember every moment of you

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Once in awhile
When reminded of love
When reminded of hope
Once in awhile

Once in awhile
When reminded of home
I must say
I look back
As real as in today
Our today will be again

Once in awhile
Around tonight will stay
My hands speak
What I need to say
My faith true
My faith true in you

Once in awhile
When reminded of love
When reminded of hope
Once in awhile

Once in awhile
When reminded of home
I must say
I look back
As real as in today
Our today will begin again

Once in awhile
When reminded of love
When reminded of hope
Once in awhile

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Now and then
All of your heart
Now and then

Now and then
Cloud covered days
Real or man made

I wait
On my friends of old days

Never once to think
Never once to believe
I would be forgotten

Now and then
All of your heart
Now and then

Deep in my sea of life, love
Touches once meant
To always remain

Now and then
The most innocent of want
Thanks we breath

Your world together
With me

Now and then
All of your heart
Now and then

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Silly putty, wine and spirits
I aged to age with you
Travel now only so far
To catch up to you
The start of something new
Will I be real again, will you
Silly putty, wine and spirits

As I need love
There isn't another song today
Different way to get along
For this night soon will fall
As if to hold me down
Breaks my mind every time
I try again to find only rain
Like I'm some kind of boxing glove
For stars don't exist time
Flowers cold as heart
Doesn't anyone love me so
As I need love

Why am I called to emptiness
To talk with you again started this mess I'm in
Writings, feelings, thoughts I speak
One strong hold I can reach you
Though today there is no one near
A hope with one prayer I continued to live
Look at this song again as I do
Take a break from your broken life I heal
Tear down walls as I did
Wait on a vision you create never true
Wake so tired of being you
Watch it seems everyone gets to touch you
Then another steals your love from under you
Fight with a sky, be done as I with colors
Everything moves and you don't remember me
Why am I called to emptiness

You want to give life I don't need
Talk about love I won't see
Think of time I can't think
You need to share from my heart
Never to share with my heart
You send hope for me in your want
I stand again in my start
After home exists no more
Where then do I find myself
Calm within my arms
I play a tune is now lost
Walk tomorrow as I walk
Look forward to no one
One favorite person as my world
Who might just care
From a sparkle in his eye once
I continue to believe
You want to give life I don't need

Every morning stays when I loved you
Why is this day you never was a question of you
I lived through only around you wasn't true
Couldn't share for you to hear made you real had to be
Then every morning stays when I loved you
There is always a begin to end feeling of love left within
Trust to call on makes life real ways to turn until
Sight is louder than thought I don't believe in left behind years
Don't care where everyone goes only myself
Wait for clouds I love near, can't sing a song isn't mine
Won't play a heart for new time
Then every morning stays when I loved you
Every morning stays when I loved you

Feelings come then go
I wait to say something these feelings mean
I keep true as today is real if today exists again
Words songs are made of heard from me written to read
Listen to share you know were ours once cared
Stand the journey of time
A cloud is a cloud any way to think
Feelings come then go

Then our memory ends
What to think, remember how to feel of life
I can find my own way in time
Silence is a great joy should love want to love
If I was lucky to have hundreds of memories
I am just as fortunate with thousands of words
Why I set a friend free, hold as a treat
Remove from harm, protect as a charm
Limos don't mean much to my need
One day with you was enough it seems
Another may have touched us wrong
Behind the wheel I'm still safe
Then our memory ends

Can't live on a loss
Love on a hold
Hold to a need
Care for a want
Gone to a memory
Over with today
Tonight soon I see
Even if I'm not sure
I must grow on
Even if I'm not sure
Don't know wrong
Times to touch
Real with life
As cold as my words
Some songs
Never made sense
I write
Sympathy is just
a pass of home
Can't live on a loss

Within one small memory of your world
My hands are clean when life comes to you
Universe with time, love for your mind
I could give no more to see you safe
Through earth and heart
Your friendship I held true
Within the small memory of your world
I gave the shore anywhere you may need
Every touch exhausted some nights
Still I wouldn't quit, made the days rest
Then began again
Used the wind as my ride
Watched clouds turn white
Signed my name across your sky
Until I was sure to say good bye
Within one small memory of your world
Within one small memory of your world

Another week goes by
I look at an empty sky
Not much change to life
I hear of you
Still not home true
Feelings don't mean much
I compare young to old
Don't find more to love
I try on different ideas
Hold no interest there
Torn down places to build
Hope you know I'm near
I write of the same years
Had a plan wasn't real
Turned back to you then
Another week goes by

I walked with you, talked with you
Remember every question I asked
Why we drifted away, how is today
Every word you said

My crawl space, your window ledge
Everyone I met
Those hours remain without thought
On a drive through unknown reason

Back in the day when I was a kid will return again
Writing of feelings is much easier than to live
Driving to nowhere held within somewhere isn't real
Stealing from life prayed for is the loves of all to steal
Calling love what love isn't however to believe love is
Get over the hill only to find the hill hasn't fallen
There's something wrong with this story of rhythm
So the day is to forget for another to exist then disappear
Why do we keep trying to change time won't change
Back in the day when I was a kid will return again

Everywhere I look is into sadness
Everyone I listen to
All of these treasures once so warm
Grown cold as if never existed
Home will never be the same
The sun from within you saved for me
How to feel, why care to understand
I sure hope tonight isn't my destiny
This unhappiness forever follows me
Collectors of all shapes and sizes
Hold on to thoughts appear wanted
I could easily forget to think again
Life can't play in harmony
To find change isn't on my mind
Everywhere I look is into sadness

Down moments with only thoughts of you
In laughter to try to forget how sad I am
A far reach from respect for time
Don't try to tell me who I was last night
I only believe what I see is real
Anymore I won't let a word change my way
Wonder inside of where I stand in you
I feel for your love to get me through
Down moments with only thoughts of you

For Answers
For answers are as shallow as tomorrow
2017 is where I am today
I can't continue to look at yesterday
See ahead, try to change the date
Devastated over the loss of so much
I think the worse year yet is tonight
With spirits flying around me like words
I hear in songs of how I feel
Don't expect I can be real again
I take it life doesn't know how to be true
Doesn't care who I rely on
Won't wear a tear for me
Will let me down every time I breathe
Let me pause on another stolen need
Want when wants are treated as a breeze
For answers are as shallow as tomorrow
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