Page 388. 13 Writings

I'm tired of Monet
Time now to throw away
I question what to say
This heart should go away
To sit to hear no thing
Why do I see today
My prayer has been settled
My wish I watch closely

Sure I've wasted some time
I had to grow a bit
I learned how others seek
I sleep myself to wake
Sure I love someone
I just don't know who
Picasso holds my interest still

Do I live my own day
I share a dream or two
One million a day
I'm tired of Monet
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My day is long and hard
My love given always for life
The night comes along, I am tired
I sleep a little, don't rest much
My wait in faith is true
My hurt in heart over you

My hands don't move easy
My arms ache, my tears in control
You away I don't look to remember
Let me feel real, I don't

In a custom to my inspiration
In the way I will only understand
A fortune of a touch without absence
In a custom to my inspiration

As into the mystery of this scene
For the want of my beginning togetherness
Ancient fables spirit solo dwellers
Then love isn't a found beauty
Explained pillows full within feathers
Flatlands are not easy to think

In a custom to my inspiration
In the way I will only understand
A fortune of a touch without absence
In a custom to my inspiration

Fabricated places there snap fingers
Clearing a raise for emotions
Hands hurt with holds in another
When I know the name for each season
I don't recognize life unless sadness
Disappearance isn't a pleasure
But in sympathy who might be real

In a custom to my inspiration
In the way I will only understand
A fortune of a touch without absence
In a custom to my inspiration

I seem cheated of my day
Cheated of my night
Cheated of my love
My time to hold and touch

How am I falling into this past
Thrown by a need or feeling
I know my want calls more ahead
Here now to move forward
Is there a want to understand
An understanding to want answered
How is this my life
I pray you always warmer than I

I seem cheated of my day
Cheated of my night
Cheated of my love
My time to hold and touch

I seem cheated of my day
Cheated of my night
Cheated of my love
My time to hold and touch
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I didn't ask, look at my time
You give for waste of life
I don't care who I see
The choice should be mine
The same is not how I feel
Every single day

Over and over and over again
Notice in the writings I write
There is never a new year
Only a dated change
Don't try to blend me in
I wouldn't follow the rain

I sit here now, let me ask
I wait here now, let me see
I need here now, let me receive
I want here now, let me be

I admire your feelings of love
In the writings I find
I read thoughts of life
Together with your heart touches
When I recognize my hold empty
Hear a closeness to my wonder
Watch every missing meaning removed
For to settle into you

I admire how you taught
During the unsure turns I met
Always to wait, have you noticed
Each new word to you well
Every new grown line
Your attention I would earn
Somewhere, someway
To admire you, tell you

As red as the sky may be
For you I bleed
As blue in the same
How my heart for you feels
Every time I must leave you
I look back with time
Everywhere I am
I again wonder of you

Think how you aren't here
As clear as day, cloudy night
I remember my prayer for you
Never have I missed a moment
As now for your life I live
I can only add
Tomorrow is all I have
To want to be with you
To listen for you true
I again wonder of you

My blessings
To save
My friends lives
My blessings
To only ask for
What I earn
My blessings
For peace
Sweetness
From heart

My blessings
My treasures
Beyond earth
My blessings
With me
For always
My blessings
My old days
I never left behind

My blessings
In alone, my prayers
My great thoughts
My blessings
Made my mind
Who I am today
My blessings
A thanks
Every moment alive
My blessings
My anger
When I feel is right

My blessings
To sit here now
Watching why
My blessings
I never receive
More than
My blessings
My blessings
Tonight

I need a beautiful day to share with you
Not a beautiful way to wonder what to do

The meaning to my life was you
My writing how I talk now to you
If you read, you don't need me true
The meaning to my life was you

How long I waited isn't everything
How alone I remained nothing new
My feelings didn't share everything
My feelings now share how I feel

The meaning to my life was you
My writing how I talk now to you
If you read, you don't need me true
The meaning to my life was you

Who knows, who cares, do I
Do I only pass time to seem real
In any reason I continue to choose
I become who I can in who I am

The meaning to my life was you
My writing how I talk now to you
If you read, you don't need me true
The meaning to my life was you

Welcome to my past
Days I never left
Nights I said to feel
My writing would tell

Welcome to my world
One thought the same
My meaning to reason
How will forever be

Welcome to my past
Days I never left
Nights I said to feel
My writing would tell

The gifts of surroundings I fall amid
The friendships are there I had made
The day, the music, my extra weight

No I am not happy only less afraid
For age, date and time, raisings a way
All basically seems the same

I carry who I know as myself
I find dreams but not the one I own
I've been disbelieved when true and real
Months sent however over how I feel

The gifts of surroundings I fall amid
The friendships are there I had made
The day, the music, my extra weight

My very most important please to god here
To stand where I began for awhile
To know what it's like to hurt and cry

The gifts of surroundings I fall amid
The friendships are there I had made
The day, the music, my extra weight

In Recording Studios Of Friends

In recording studios of friends
So many musicians in my life I lost touch
In recording studios of friends
Often am I called back by another's memory
Once walked with to think to walk again
The reason I continue to hold on to certain time
Isn't only a pass by of tonight
The strangest sounds haven't been around for years
Seem to drive me through a new distance to seek
Who I was into who I am
Explains the truth will prevail not to forget
How I fought to be free for love did I see you then
Is this why I remain in recording studios of friends
In recording studios of friends
So many musicians were in my life I lost touch
In recording studios of friends

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I Show My Feelings In A Writing

I show my feelings in a writing
Don't speak in any other way
Share my need with a memory
Don't see a want to change
Days go by I don't miss
Nights the same
Happy I lived as myself
Sad it didn't work out my way
With you
I show my feelings in a writing

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Two days of quiet nothing's changed
I can't find anyone I care to say
In a writing is my only life way
To meet again with you some day
So I stay in my little circle of time
Tried to look outside never on my mind
Satisfied I reach within you
Let you tell me we aren't apart
I listen to you for how I love
So much like you
We could have been brothers true
In another turn of tonight
As long as I understand why
Who then I lost touch
Where then I must walk to you
Two days of quiet nothing's changed

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If You Want To Learn Of Love

If you want to learn of love start at the beginning
When you were born through the years forgotten
Who you miss once held with the deepest need
Look at every sight in your mind for those memories
Those memories will hold on until real again
The touch doesn't know how to leave a touch behind
How hard a story is to change into another shine
As you read the lines you heard so well can't end
Becomes the song you sing or there isn't a voice
And I don't mind saving you to change your heart
Be sure you are warm even as cold as I appear
If you want to learn of love start at the beginning
If you want to learn of love

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Childhood Days

Childhood days will take over if the going gets tough
I knew so many musicians before names were chosen
Spent so much time with feelings from artist times
Watched how my young friends were the same as I
I left for higher ground shown to be mine
Only there are times I feel called back down
To remember you, listen to reason for why
Don't give up now I may regret who you are is real
Take advice from the past over every song I sing
Listen to you through any thought I may find
Not to worry I am remembered let my memories by
Childhood days will take over if the going gets tough

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My vacation is writing of you
Listening to who I love
Remembering times I miss
Driving through this bliss
Touching those hearts touched mine
Feeling how I feel
Sharing every minute I can be there again
Playing with hope
Sending you a sign
On a joy ride itoday in Laguna Beach
Who held me strong
Why the sun never shined over me
Set back in line by words to find
As my daily routine
Too many homes weren't ours
To watch the ocean try to sway me from
My vacation is writing of you

So This Morning I Still Sit In You

So this morning I still sit in you
Haven't found life is real
Unless I touch for who is true
When you know this let me understand
How is longing to come to an end
Sure I spend my time on you
Been told I'm wrong
Never could I let words speak for me
Didn't hold a meaning
I saved these moments for you
Bring peace to your need
We may not see each other for a long time
We may be together anyway
I must admit had I not known you
I could be different
Our next world we send to each other
Will this be in living color
So this morning I still sit in you

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