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My Time Is Hard To Hold In One Place

My time is hard to hold in one place
Make life mine for just one day
Keep love true through the night
My mind is on home feeling real

I can't explain more than to write
How hated
How loved I am for my sight
How my travels bring me to now
Any way I try to move beyond

My time is hard to hold in one place
Make life mine for just one day
Keep love true through the night
My mind is on home feeling real

Until I only hold my thought
In my place for my one touch
To play this end to my hurt I want
May I please doesn't seem to be enough

Take this message into your heart
Take this message any way you want
My need keeps calling never wrong
Enough to care, there is no end
Will I find to say this again only

My time is hard to hold in one place
Make life mine for just one day
Keep love true through the night
My mind is on home feeling real

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The Way I Was Raised

The way I was raised is not my fault
The way I was raised, raised now
How I speak, what I think about
Where I live, why for now
Who I am, who I become
How I learned, my time I use
My thoughts of you for always
My age, my days
I live the best I can
My nights
As my true wait on you
I don't need a partner
I don't ask for a partner
I enjoy you as my best friend
The way I was raised is my heart

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In Another Town Again

In another town again
Walking round and round
For a writing of my life
For thoughts of my love
For time to pass different

In another town again
Sitting round to hear
Something I want to hear
Need I see answered finally

I'm not living for someone else
To understand me again

In another town again
Why should I care
Give my reason, only my reason
In another town again

In another town the last time
For the last look around
For home I would enjoy
For heart I breath to share

In another town again

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Standing On Our Street (Standing On Our Street Now)

Standing on our street
Standing on our street now

Standing on our street
Thinking of a way to leave
Where was I
Standing on our street
Thinking of a way to stay
Pass my time by
Thinking of a way to leave
Where am I now
Still in front of you
Thinking of a way to leave
Life and love behind me

Standing on our street
Looking at us one last time
One last time never ends
Standing on our street
You should have read my mind
Sure I found everything

Standing on our street
Standing on our street now

Standing on our street
The hardest way to find
When I have everything I need
Anything I want in my hands
What will I choose this night
Next day comes around
What have I turned down
To find you as the fool I am

Standing on our street
Standing on our street now

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When You Touch All I Walked

When you can touch all I walked
I will let you talk to me again

Takes a special love for me to stop
Listen with my time for mind to stop
Notice where a note begins to end
Why, I understand music too well

How I found music through my life
Then left music along side of my love

Grown into enough meaning
Nothing to you
Meaning nothing to who I was
Meaning nothing to who I am now

When you can touch all I walked
I will let you talk to me again

If I didn't know how to say how I feel
I used any word I could to write
Never to care if anything made sense
Alone became my only friend
Do you hear me yet
Only why I had, had I

Grown into enough meaning
Nothing to you
Meaning nothing to who I was
Meaning nothing to who I am now

When you can touch all I walked
I will let you talk to me again

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I Watch For Thoughts To Send Your Way

I watch for thoughts to send your way

I walked away more than I could say
Until I had to make my way
As I found every day

Don't ask me how I came to tonight
I often try to forget
To move into a new tonight

Only I fall back
Into you as never away
Called back into you for my todays

I watch for thoughts to send your way

My writings aren't made of fame
My writings are heart
I breath of my life
The losses can never be returned
Wins I earned for you, from you
Now unsure where I belong

I watch for thoughts to send your way

I watch for love to send your way

I watch for thoughts to send your way

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To This Page Of My Sleep

I never had anyone to talk to
Growing in the home I was
I never was loved in a family
Telling me every day I wasn't
Wanted as alive to be someone
Become who I could become
Takes every bit of life out of me now

Tonight isn't a meaning of forgiveness
Friendships were taken from me
Doesn't end on one missing mind
Noone can be who I am

To this page of my sleep

I try to explain how left behind I was
How left behind I am
People only believe
What they want to believe
Want me to be who they want me to be
Not who they hear from what I say of me

To this page of my sleep

I know you understand the closeness we had
If only you would return as I now speak

Tonight isn't a meaning of forgiveness
Friendships were taken from me
Doesn't end on one missing mind
Noone can be who I am

To this page of my sleep

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When I Find Myslf As I Please

When I find myself as I please
Funny how time plays with me
Where I find myself never to leave
When I find myself as I please

Looking through my way to believe
Loving for your change to notice me
Taking today as always the same
Waiting on what will you find to think

When I find myself as I please
Funny how time plays with me
Where I find myself never to leave
When I find myself as I please

Who knows me as well as anybody
Well as anybody can be tonight
Waiting on what you will find to say
Never changed

When I find myself as I please
Funny how time plays with me
Where I find myself never to leave
When I find myself as I please

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I Only Smile With Why

I only smile with why
Why I started to cry
To say I love you

I only write now as habit
As something to live
I don't enjoy as I used to
I don't love as much as then

I only smile with why
Why I started to write
To say I love you

Find respect from you
Look at young as today
My travels the same
The reasons always with me

I only smile with why
Why I started to travel
To say I love you

I only smile with why (why I started to cry)
Why I started to write
To say I love you

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Thirty Six Umbrellas

Thirty six umbrellas
Backwards and then
I hold onto your love

What should I
Understand of life
Troubled days of when

I have
All of the treasures
I enjoy til now
Until now ends

Thirty six umbrellas
Backwards and then
I hold onto your love

Then there comes
A time to forget

Thirty six umbrellas
Backwards and then
I hold onto your love

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Cheated Is All I Think As Real

I never was a flower child
Only in thought of living wild
Away from broken hearts
Away from time
Away from people not alive inside

I never wanted to travel abroad
Travel close, travel far
My mind was awake when young
Older isn't older to me now

Cheated is all I think as real
Cheated room after room of ill will

Pleasant days ahead as who
What words will I be forced to use
Is why I sit silent in my nights too
Trust on earth is full of abuse

Cheated is all I think as real
Cheated room after room of ill will

There is no peace of mind in you
I find my peace of mind alone
In every moment I live alone
In every memory I know

Cheated is all I think as real
Cheated room after room of ill will

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It's A Shame

It's a shame
A man must die
To regain his fame
With the hard love
He earned
With his heart
The life he gave
For life to share
How he gave his time

It's a shame
One guy
Could be so warm
In a world so cold
Not willing to play
Until I shake how
Into all of your eyes

It's a shame
Truth has to reminded
For honor to shine through

It's a shame

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I'm Busted With Noone To Care

I'm busted with noone to care
Noone to hear, noone to feel
Noone to help asI need
As if to want is all I am

To find for my own sweet self
If gifted for my own sweet self

I'm busted with noone to care
Noone to hear, noone to feel
Noone to help asI need
As if to want is all I am

I'm tired of this world as is
Man and woman
Games shown as real
The only real love to feel
Isn't love anywhere

I'm busted with noone to care
Noone to hear, noone to feel
Noone to help asI need
As if to want is all I am

I think to live if to live
Where would I live
I don't listen, I don't hear
To understand
A daily past to begin again

I'm busted with noone to care
Noone to hear, noone to feel
Noone to help asI need
As if to want is all I am

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Spirit Kind A Natural Tear

Spirit kind a natural tear
Quiet kind silent not to hear
How anyone cares, who cares
How anyone cares
I really don't care to hear

People sell themselves for gold
Aren't aware until they grow
Into silver for awhile
Placed inside of what is mind

Spirit kind a natural tear
Quiet kind silent not to hear
How anyone cares, who cares
How anyone cares
I really don't care to hear

When I read of a new day
A new day once was at play
In the same way, will again
In the same day did you care
I been there in a new day

Spirit kind a natural tear
Quiet kind silent not to hear
How anyone cares, who cares
How anyone cares
I really don't care to hear

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Even You

I remain sane with writing
People are not my favorite hobby
I run into too many hateful souls
Say anything to appear strong

I don't trust anyone about you
Not anyone I find on this earth true
Too many people can be bought
Bought away with any thought

Even you
Can I trust you
With all I trusted in you for
Even you
Can I trust you
With all I trusted in you for

Now I wait
For now I wait
Tell me a song and dance escape
Of loyalty, of royalty
Of any page you must explain
I can read through every change

Even you
Can I trust you
With all I trusted in you for
Even you
Can I trust you
With all I trusted in you for

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Reason

Reason speaks for life
Reason for want
Reason speaks for life
Emptiness as love
Need to enjoy alone
Never truly home
Reason speaks for life
Reason for want
Reason speaks for life
Emptiness as love

To Share My Life With You

To share my life with you
One title or many
One writing or two
There will always be another
To share my life with you

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