Page 17. 6 Writings

I Will Never Be The Same

Doesn't matter what you say
The voice, the heart
The broken silence

I will never be the same

The innocence forgotten
The innocence now found
Outside is erased away

I will never be the same

There is a future to feel
Never too old to care
Blinders fit better along side

I will never be the same

Doesn't matter what you say
The voice, the heart
The broken silence

I will never be the same

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I Could Smile More Often

I don't live near the land
Not close to the sky
I have time on my hands
I would move different to find

As life decides to try my heart
Love runs on my mind
I watch the wind to move my eyes
Not shown one good reason why

I don't hear guilt too much
Alone has its' good side

I could smile more often
If I could buy this walk for me

I fall into trouble more than easy
Then to turn to wonder why
Who do I truly owe for my hands

I was born to write a song
I took the long way around

A few more thoughts along this day
I will wait for my home

I was born to feel my feelings
How do I feel

I could smile more often
If I could buy this walk for me

As life decides to try my heart
Love runs on my mind
I watch the wind to move my eyes
Not shown one good reason why

I could smile more often
If I could buy this walk for me

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I Don't Understand Time

You must look through here today
Off into life away
Thought on hearts' hold for love
Prayer with tears if a must

I don't understand time

You must believe with your touch
Faith plays tomorrow
I have one wish left unanswered
Does it mean all so much, yes

I don't understand time

If i did I may be more alive
We don't use most of our minds
If we did togetherness
Togetherness would never fall apart

I don't understand time

I don't understand time as well

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If I Had My Dream

The missing years
Worst years of my life
Too many to mention
People to touch

I think of others
Most of my time
I live for today
Most of my love

Must be a lonely heart
Behind those dark walls
Must be a warm thought
I see to continue to write

If I had my dream
Years of body means
I would laze within you

If I had my dream
Down on these streets
I might remain below you

I have too many trees to count
Too much needed attention
I couldn't imagine you more
I wouldn't want any longer

If I had my dream
Years of body means
I would laze within you

If I had my dream
Down on these streets
I might remain below you

Must be a lonely heart
Behind those dark windows
Must be a warm thought
I see to continue to write

If I had my dream
Years of body means
I would laze within you

If I had my dream
Down on these streets
I might remain below you

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I Live As I Live Today

I don't want to write of trees
Rain, the ocean, or me
How the sun shines, the breeze
Clouds, the sky, beliefs

I have what I need in front of me
Seems too often, too always

I live as I live today
Quietly, I pass time away

I don't want to write of life
Love wherever this may be
Sand, rock, or streets
Home, heaven, or havens

I have what I need in front of me
Seems too often, too always

I live as I live today
Quietly, I pass time away

I don't want to write of feelings
I don't listen for my cares
I watch my movement within

I live as I live today
Quietly, I pass my time away

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I Could Sleep Forever

I could sleep forever
Wouldn't miss anything new

Rest, peace, quiet
Unknown, slow, treasured
Clean, a moment, my pleasure
Green, blue and orange
Bright with silence
Dim with choice
For doing nothing, living less

I could sleep forever
Wouldn't miss anything new

I watch this day around me
Sure is easy to hear you
Anger comes upon me
Seems a challenge to care

I could sleep forever
Wouldn't miss anything new

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I don't think you ever left or will any time soon
Got that feeling in my heart who you were true
I see deeper than most shallow eyes see
When the sun shines I know why over your life
But no one needs to believe my forever road
The only one to travel back through isn't wrong
I don't miss you, cry for you, find sadness in you
I can't touch emptiness as I do for other losses
I hear changes couldn't be from an old recording
I watch you with the move of a distant closeness
I could identify anyone as real doesn't mean real
You are too easy to read not a left behind need
No I don't think you ever left or will any time soon
I am hard to fool, knew you too well, too long
Didn't play along actually laughed at the show
I laughed at the show and still do
I don't think you ever left or will any time soon

Yea it's over for now but I won't let that stop my forever fun
Yea it's a song reminds me of a singer I met in nyc from england
So yea it's a bit more than a turned around feeling didn't exist
It's a heart I lost when I left the city not allowed to return
A story of my life about stairs I climbed, people I met and you
How I wasn't allowed to talk on the phone spoken of as not home
It's a truth stayed with me I continue to remember was wrong
Yea a thought remained real in my mind I have to write
Pictures connect words spoken I was told to hide away too young
Therefore I spend every spare minute to bring those scenes alive
Keep hope one day I will hear enough to know I wasn't forgotten
Yea it's over for now but I won't let that stop my forever fun

The sun doesnt shine right after our time together
How do I leave you
There's no one on my mind more than you
But I got over yesterday years ago I thought
Questions unanswered still around bother me
To look for every way to say how I feel
Could be today is empty anything goes
Can't find a new song I love so
Need to keep busy with life I grow
I could use a serious change though
Don't know what to ask of anyone or you
Nothing else touches my heart
The sun doesn't shine right after our time together

"Until this same life can be proven doesn't exist later in the same life with the same players I loved were in this same life I won't talk about life of any other nature to anyone."

I didn't know we would fall apart never to enjoy you again
A guitar in the loft with a shelved window seat remains
Top of the stairs there was a room another lived we went by
You were a friend we found on a picture at the end of a day
Boy getting these memories together sure can be rough to see
A small hall we walked led to how I asked where were you from
England would always follow me as the need to feel a sound
When I notice a few things about you sends me back
I can only touch how we walked down a street, we didn't talk much
You were tall, I was small as my young mind looked at you then
Tonight soon arrives in how many hours did we spend of our time
Seems we were awake all night somewhere inside of our minds
I gave away any offer to my life to reach beyond how I left
I didn't know we would fall apart never to enjoy you again

Notice something for me will you without a clue
I need a song change but then may not share the life I lived
Get tired when I have to read of thoughts speak wrong
Forked tongues are the worse to look beyond continues on
So old the story of times before show times after aren't real
Sure I will finish my 10,000 run but only on the truth of my love
Now as I carry on inside of my sun think I will laugh awhile
Look at those lost stairs I can't climb again, talk about it
Shed a tear for today, read of tonight should be you
Remind myself how evil still rules the world then enjoy tomorrow
How often will I have to see the lie never end, call it's a sin
Notice something for me will you without a clue

We could have remained friends if only he listened
We could have remained friends
One day the memories would return
To think today how I still sing your song
Never to speak of holds with you
What do you think in how you were sent away
If dad was alive what would he say
To see my writing is all I have left of you
We could have remained friends if only he listened
We could have remained friends

I let go of more than you may ever lose
I lost you
I spent a lot of time where thought wasn't right
Had to keep my faith you would help me out
When days went by appeared you didn't care
I let the dark treat me to love wasn't near
I took every minute I could find in my hands
Turned how to feel down as the best of life
I couldn't compete for your heart so I sat back
Said there will be a time you will remember me
I let go of more than you may ever lose
I lost you